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January 2009

Not really off to an auspicious start this year. I spent New Year's Day in the ER with chest pains.

Going to the ER is sort of like taking your car to the mechanic. It works fine the moment you get it in the repair shop and starts clunking the moment your get it home.

Same issue with ER's. I had an EKG, all sorts of blood work - no heart attack or blood clots.

The doctor said he 'could' keep me over night and they could do a stress test in the morning. He didn't say I 'should'. So I opted for home. I should have opted to stay. Bed rest sucks, the test would have been done. Unfortunately, the b/f didn't speak up and say anything and has gone from overbearing coddling to the far away you've got cooties attitude....or so it seems.

On top of all of that........no alcohol, caffine or nicotine. Which would have been fine because I had really had myself set up to quit smoking this weekend. It didn't quite happen but I'm close. I've reset my date for January 11.

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